Into the Forest

I suppose if I am going to start a blog, then maybe it would be courteous to introduce myself and the purpose of why I'm writing here. After a lifetime of feeling I was living a lie, I finally mustered up the courage and took that first step towards the dark scary unknown. See, I was raised in the bible thumping, dress your Sunday best midwest. Heck, growing up there were generations of families in our church - including mine. People who had been together and there for each other for literally years. It was a nice and comfortable environment, I'll give them that. Then when I was around 14, the head office of the church made a decision on homosexual acceptance that split the happy family of the church right into two. From what I heard, that was the result over a large part of the nation. And boy, did it get UGLY.

From that point on, I started to see things a little more clearly, recognized the snide and cutting comments for what they were, and became increasingly disgusted. By 16 I'd had enough and walked away. I did try to go back twice, each with an open mind. The first time ended when I was told that my now ex-husband was the head of our house, and that it was ok for me to work literally 4 jobs while he sat on his butt drinking expensive hooch and downloaded girlie shots all day. Instead, I walked away from the church AND the husband! The second time was after I was remarried with 2 young children. We hit a rough patch like many families do at one time or another, and during 6 months not a single person could be bothered to pick up the phone and just ask how we were doing. We'd been attending for 5 yrs. We didn't return.

In the past year my husband and I have realized that we do wish for spiritual fulfilment, and that the pagan paths are right for us. They make sense to us and they just feel right. He is currently investigating the path of the Asatru, and I am walking the road of the pagan Druid. This is still very new to us, and this blog is a place where I will probably bounce ideas, work things out, and just figure out my way through the forest.